Myself

      In the last one year I felt I was kind of lost. I kept ask myself one question: why I have to come to the United States? This question was caused by a plenty of occurrences that happened in a period of time when I have just graduated from my university.      After an intensive preparation for my graduate art works, everything but made the exhibition was gotten ready. All the works were orderly continuing. The exhibition was remarkably successful. Through this graduate exhibition, I was recommended to participated Declaration of Independence: Giant Cup Today National Art Students Annual Awards 2011 in Today Art Gallery, which is the biggest art institution in China. Moreover, I surprisingly awarded a silver award. Since that moment, my cellphone started to be busy. So many galleries contacted me and wanted to cooperate with me. I realized that this is my best beginning of my art life. The condition, however, will never be obedient to people's wishes. My plan of study abroad was started simultaneously. I had to cancel all of my art plans which really frustrated my anticipation of my life. Even though I have already come to the United States, I still felt that this country was not ready for my coming.      In this summer, I went back to China with my excitement and confusion. During those two months, I hang out with my friends, stay at home with my family. Everything just likes my life before I went to America. People will meditate a lot after a period of peaceful time. The situation turns out that I want to back to America. Just kike when I was in university. I did anticipate vacation. I prefer to stay on campus. For not very specific reason, I just need a place where I can make effort on my career. Home, in my opinion, is a box which saves my memory. However, my future will not exist in there. Otherwise, the place where I am struggling for my life is America.      That is all my confusion of living America, I wrote these words according to my major, my goal of my career, and my conversion of my thoughts in American. I hope I can share these experiences to everyone, and resonate with everyone's heartfelt wishes.